As many of you have noticed, I've not really been my normal self.
I've not been too normal concerning my blogs. Not really written on the school district. As a matter of fact the district has been part of my problem. It has become as I have written in previous blogs as a " Lost Cause."
Heck, I'm almost to the conclusion that the school system as we knew it is dead.
And needs some sort of a drastic overhaul. Call it COVID, call it society, call it social media, call it the political landscape,call it whatever. Perhaps it was inevitable.
( On a side note St Debbie just got aggravated at the cat and JUST referred to him as " Fred Garfield Thomas." )
On an economic note, the math for America, the world ain't mathing. Don't tell me this or that political leader is doing better, it isn't. This is worldwide, here, Europe, Asia, South America.....It is why Iran is in the middle of a revolution.....Inflation is worldwide.
I am worried about younger folks, Millennials, Gen Z..... What is going to become of them. They may take to the streets at some point. I may go with them...." It's a good day to die." as the Lakota would say....
But what has really pushed me over the edge is people I know, my age passing, that and a former student I taught in Liberty County passing.
I had to speak at the funerals.
Ask me to speak and well, I am going to go humorous. I'm going to tell stories on you. ( If my wife asks you to speak at any memorial she has, do the same, go after me ....hard. It's what I would want. The Lord knows, I like baloney, picking and teasing, going on.)
The student one, well, I went there and was told by his wife that I did exactly what she wanted concerning him and it is what he would have wanted. But I don't know, I was sick to my stomach the drive home down Hwy 90 back home. I stopped at the store in Devers and got a 7UP to settle it down.
Then, there was my best friend in high school passed while we were in Alaska this past May. I don't know, somehow there was no closure there for me.
I have a 95 year old mother and while she is still okay, you are starting to see decline. Then, I have an uncle not well, I was close to growing up not well at all.
My nephew who is essentially me, is having a hard go teaching his first year, and while first year teaching is always rough, the world has changed so much, well, I could not teach in 2026.
I've had 2 major back surgeries in the past 2 years and neither really "fixed" my pain. It just sort of kept it from getting worse and recently, it hasn't even done that.
In the past, all those pastoral psychology counseling classes taught by actual psychologists and psychiatrists in those days, I took at the seminary were able to, well, " Heal thyself."
Lately, I've not been right and St. Debbie has noticed. And she has been concerned.
I finally went to my doctor this week and he prescribed some "happy pills" for me...He said, "you already know the question and answers, sometimes you need other help."
So, we will see.
I really don't want my edge taken off, especially when I write the blog.
So, if I seem " off" for a couple of months, it's all he wants me to take them, and in truth, all I want to take them.
I know TMI, but sometimes you need to be honest and let folks know what is going on.
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